today, i went with my family and my mom`s twin family to Bahia resort in mactan lapu-lapu, we went there at 3.. i was pretty much excited since i always wanted to have relaxing moment with my mom`s twin family.. they are much more like my 2nd family.. it was pretty fun.. jumping in the pool.. eating… playing basket ball, and volleyball.. including soccer too :) hahah.. it was pretty fun…

but what kinda make it more tiring when i slipped on the side of the pool.. it was much of my fault though.. i was chasing after my causing.. and i suddenly slipped.. i slipped like about 2-3 meters.. i dropped with my back.. and fortunately, i didnt hit my head. it was a pretty bad experience :( that moment i couldnt hardly breathe.. it was like i was catching my breath so hard.. and it embarrassed me soooo much.. i feel like everybody was looking at me with a shock face.. at that moment my cousin came to me and asked me if i were okay.. and that girl near me came close and hold my hand o.o that really was pretty weird :/ but im thankful for them supporting me when i tried to sit.. 

and now my back hurts like hell.. 

anyway that was my day :) just posting :D hahaha!

i know that i really missed you, yes i really do.. theres not a day that i really want to hug you sooo tight but i can`t.. so i just hug my pillow and think about you instead.. i miss you Camille, i really do.. if i can`t take the opportunity of seeing you makes me really sad and teary.. i wanna see you and be with you now, tomorrow, the next day, the following weaks.. months, years and forever… i just want to be with youuu.. where i wake up each morning, and still im hugging you sooo tight.. not a pillow but you.. i just want to be with you.. 

i dont know if this feeling is bad or good, but what i feel for you is insanely Love.. I may not know the whole meaning of Love, but whenever i think about it.. i always think about you.. you mean the world to me.. its like my world is already yours. i dont know what life is gonna be with out you.. 

i know were still teenagers, but im really wishing and praying that you will be the only one fore me.. the only one who i will spend with, share my happy moments with, and battle the most hardest part in my life with.. i know, i may have said this a million times now, or you may get bored and used to it somehow.. but i just want you to know. your my love of my life.. and i miss youuu sooo much.. :*

• my parents:   why are you so antisocial you're going to end up dead by the time you get to 20 due to lack of sunlight why don't you have any friends get off the computer and do some sport or photography look it's nice weather go outside god you're so lazy
• me:   can i go out today
• my parents:   no

ohsomekams:

I miss you, I seriously miss you. I want to be able to hug you and hold your hands and give you the sweetest kisses but I can’t. If only I could fly out to where you are. I would just drop everything and literally do anything. Sometimes it brings tears to my eyes that I can’t be with you physically. It sucks when I can’t see you. You have infected me with your love, and I can’t help but miss you beside me.

i miss you too, i just miss you sooo much.. if only time would fly and we would already get married and start a new life together forever.. wake up every morning beside you in my arms.. go to work and give you kisses, and text you “i miss you” when im on work hours.. maybe i just misses you soo much.. i want to hug you tooo tight that whats left is that you feel already my heart beating for you.. give you smooth, soft, sweet and full of love little kisses.. and make you feel that your the most special girl in the whole world.. i always pray to God, that i wish he could just give me 10 minutes of powers… to have a teleportation skill so i could just jump through space and be there for you … so i could give you everything i have… :( i just miss you so bad babe.. soo bad.. i want you here in my arms forever.. and i cant wait for that time to come..

there`s always that moment where teenagers tend to think like… “i wish i was born with another parent” or “i wish i could live a life like them” or “i wish my life is just peaceful”

either way, i think all three of those, i wish my life is just the other way around, where its all peaceful and free.. why i said this? its just my everyday living i guess.. i really got used this though.. but sometimes its over my limit.. 

just about 30 min ago, though its kinda awkward but my sister just saw me crying while i was preparing my dog`s food.. my mom was somehow scolding us for some small reason.. which for her was a big problem already, i understand that she`s worried and all of those stuffs. but the problem is.. i just cant seem to understand why she can`t see our efforts and initiative towards the house.. it makes me so sad, that all of the efforts i put this past few days are just nothing to her.. like somehow she cant see it the way i see it..

AM I ENOUGH? I AM WORTH EVERYTHING YOU THINK I AM? I AM THE KIND OF SON SHE WANTS ME TO BE? AM I WORTH OF ALL GOD`s BLESSINGS? OR AM I JUST SOME STUPID, RECKLESS, IRRESPONSIBLE, AND LAZY CHILD THAT MY MOM IS MAKING ME FEEL?

im just worthless, all i wanted was to make her proud. i studied alot, aimed for good grades, do all the things she wants me to do.. and even sacrifice for her.. but for what? I JUST WANNA DIE NOW.. its like im dying.. if only i could tell you how much i love you :(

SORRY GUYS JUST LETTING IT OUT :/

Ayeeee, I love you baby. :*

I LOVE YOU MORE BABY :*

i hear by, tell you everyone.. its our 17th Month :) really, we dont naturally celebrate monthsaries, we barely even greet ourselves.. cuz for me its nice if we treat each day special.. but today was super extraordinary day :) it wasnt our normal date :) but it was a special date..

im so happy baby, that even without knowing that it was our 17th.. we made it feel so special… for the both of us.. :) it was somehow one of the best dates we ever had for me :)

watching movies is really an enjoying hobby for us :) spending time laughing, thrilled, and get excited of the movie :) eating also makes me very happy :) you always know my weakness.. i dont care if my tummy get bigger and bigger as long as im eating with you :) hee..

thank you all for this opportunity.. to love again and being love back. i know how many times i told you this but im blessed to have you.. you told me what real love is.. if it wasnt for you.. i would still doubt that there will be no girl like you.. how could i ever thank God enough? he gave me you :) and im never gonna be letting you go.. ever..

happy 17th babe.. next month we might forget again.. but we`ll still be counting :)
ILOVEYOU HUNNY BUNNY :*

Something tainted by the dark norms of society. Something that I see as something beautiful, but has been twisted by the dark nature of our world. Love, for some people, it’s just four letters; for others, it’s simply a concept, or an impossibility. But for me, it’s an essence of life. Love is something that no one can live without, and it’s something… someone, that I will search for forever and a day to find. Call this cheesy; call this a cliched speech, but at least call it what it really is. <3

lizlime:

Jim Henson || September 24, 1936 - May 16, 1990

just like a book with many chapters.. finally, the chapter where we started all over again after a depressing fight has come.. reminding it makes me sad but at the same time to be strong for the person i love and makes it a lesson for the both of us. this week has really been hard for the both of us.. this feelings that really cant be explained all through out because we just dont know how to let it out. we ignore each others feelings, we quarrel at a misunderstanding.. and we just stay silent and feeling depressed all through out. we tried patching things up.. but we failed at the first attempt.. it wasnt that easy but she`s strong.. and im holding on.. giving my very best not to fall for some devil`s trap.. it was sure a tough obstacle for us.. God revealed the long and hurtful experience for my lady, i didnt know what i should do back then.. but she still loved me with all she got.. and so i apologized and explained.

things were really getting better today, how we talked. but not the usual talks we have before.. we tried our best for us to go to a stable stage.. we dont want ourselves to let loose of each other just because of this obstacle on the way.. we teamed up and defeated that devil trying to poison our minds.. lets say.. “TRUE LOVE PREVAILS” 

i learned that life is not getting any easier..we need all the strength we could get.. friends, family, and each other`s love.. a friend told me while i was asking her some advice.. she told me, “tof, you two are one of the strongest couple i ever met. dont worry kaya ra na”. i never thought about that before.. but i know myself my love for Camille is stronger than i thought.  

i never thought Camille will put a great impact in my life, she`s like my yin and yang.. she puts peace in me.. and make me go wild the other way.. she makes my true self come out when she`s around.. I just love her that much. that all i wanna do is just stare at her, thank God, and kiss her after. i wouldnt like to say, i would die for her.. why? what for? cuz if i die, where will she go? ill just leave her like that? then NO! i will be the one to take care of her, sleep with her and just have all the laughs we will have in the future.. so no dying :)

I LOVE YOU BABE, FOREVER UNTIL THE END OF THE GALAXY. thank you for being so kind to me. for loving me as ME. im smiling really, typing all these makes me smile so i hope it goes for you as well.  im happy were okay now.. :* ILOVEYOUUU!!! :*

saw this on Facebook.. some parts are true.. some parts are not true :) just a one sided explanation but it sure does explains most of us boys who are loving so passionately.